My heart feels like rotten potato salad.
it’s leaking. weeping ichor
I know this is part of my flare cycle
all I can do is ride it out, remind myself that my brain is lying, that I am more than a useless burden (etc)
If I try to push it, I will just end up back in the life eclipsing pain and fatigue flare.
Back at the bottom of the lake
with no energy to crawl out yet again
so I’m trying to ride it out, rest, and remind myself that I will probably get back to my higher ground.
at some point
So as much as I want to make a to do list
and check things off
feel like I am catching up
Today I am going to rest as much as possible
catch up on some shows
remind my brain it’s lying
and hope tomorrow is a better day