or survival in a universe where we are officially told not to exist in a million different ways
I’m not sure what to say anymore honestly. We work really hard to make ends meet. America keeps doing what it has always done and stomping on anyone and everyone it can.
I have a lot of nightmares now about what will happen to my family if the government keeps rolling back civil rights.
I am constantly in a near panic cycle of can’t-must. I can’t do this thing that I must do for us to have more room to breathe, to thrive as the neoliberal illusion of our democracy burns around us.
I have so many ideas for great blog topics then open the app to stare blankly at the screen. My brain anxiety screaming frantically as it tries to parse all the layers of constant survival math and if then scenarios running in my head at any given moment into something interesting, witty, and just self effacing enough for mass media consumption.
But it can’t do that so I close the app and go back to different work, Doula school work or commission knitting. This cycle repeats itself at least once a day.
But then Trump banned some words and phrases, one being transgender. Now I as much as anyone recognize how disturbing and upsetting it is that phrases like science based or evidence based to be banned. It is not nice for the middle class illusion of democracy to have the president going around banning science words. It stinks of the sort of overt oppression that IBPOC and perhaps especially multiply marginalized IBPOC have been experiencing all along.
Neo-liberal response to this has mostly been hand wringing and the adult equivalent of stomping their feet and insisting that they can say what they want. Shouting Transgender, like a battle call, like we are academic and not actual people who just told again, officially, that we shouldn’t exist.
But let me just say that shouting Transgender does nothing to protect our most vulnerable trans family. It does nothing to protect black trans women from being murdered. It does nothing to protect trans and gender non-conforming IBPOC from systemic and interpersonal violence and oppression. It does nothing to insulate multiply marginalized trans people from the sort of silencing, erasure, medical, and social neglect that often results in our slower deaths.
If you want to put your money where your mouth is, give generously to trans IBPOC, to multiply marginalized trans people. Not because they are cool, or fun, or sexy to you; not because they make you feel good about yourself or agree with you but because they and we have just as much a right to live as more than a banned academic concept, as you do.